Monday, January 29, 2007

todae was quite fun...hehes i dunno how come suddenly todae so high la hahas .. anyw todae was quite fun la hehes den went paya lebar with hui qing n laura to study locus n construction cuz tmr have test. wa tmr stressing sia got 3 tests but wed to fri camp!!! =) kkx shall write to here=D

Sunday, January 28, 2007

wells my darling cousin is beside me now!!! hehes anyw cant believe tat people actually mistook me as my cousin's mother!!! do i look so old? so insulting la!! hehes anyw tat was quite long ago ler m thinking abt it though.. kkx nth much to say

~haix~ today was a super boring day la stayed at hm e whole day.. hahas but my super cute cousin is here to pei me ~=D anyw tmr got chem test lorx.. ytd something so malu happen la all because of e stupid melissa hahas jkjk.. anyw ytd aft tuition went shopping with melissa n hui qing for their new year clothes. i saw some clothes tat i like too hehs!! mayb will drag my mum dere to get it or get it myself for mii own bdae present!!!=D Haix den today woke up late watched 'e zuo ju zhi wen' studied awhile den did nth ler onli sleep sleep sleep n sleep!! hahas got nth to do mahx. =) like pig rite hehes bleahx

Friday, January 26, 2007

ahahas ~haix~ life indeed has alot of complications.. im not referring to anything in particular but to things tat i noe n experience before n i realise tat indeed life is complicated.. anyw today had dance wa damn tired sal its like practice , practice n practice for the SYF la. hahas but aft we get e results it'll be worth it . im like so bz nowadays?? mon, tue , thurs remedial wed n fri dance den its like no days to rest at all?? aft SYF it'll be like everyday remedial~haix~ anyw i mus seriously start revising now la all m sec3 work. nxt week got camp wheeeeee hope i can learn something frm it n to people: i noe tat i've been irritating but pls forgive me!! i din mean to!!=( haix i noe i irritated alot of people esp shimin cuz she sitting behind me. so sry to those pple. i'll try not to be so irritating in class =) hope our friendship do get stronger . kkx tats all i have for nowl m gg to study. buaiz!

Thursday, January 25, 2007

~haix~ time passes so quickly.. anyw today miss cheong like had a toalk with us?? n like i jus realised how bz i'll be?? haiyoz.. anyw i still miss sigu, josh n joel badly. suddenly when i come back, no one came up i call me 'hello dumb dumb' it suddenly feels so weird . i miss them. the days realli pass by quickly. Why? Why din i spend more time with them?? i realli regretted not spending more time with them in e past when they were still here. i miss them bang-ing here n there.. suddenly when i come back n step into e hse , it feels so quiet n cold unlike last time when they were here it was all filled with noise n i wan tat feeling back again now i have to get used to life w/o them again.. it is realli difficult for me to get over the days when they were here. i feel like crying but i cant. i dunno why. e tears jus dun seem to flow down..sometimes i realli wish tat i can cry my heart out n pour all my troubles to someone tat i noe n tat i can trust but i cant.. okay nvm back to studies..

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

wells.. sigu, josh n joel went back today..~haix~ e house is so quiet w/o them. takkaires!!! i'll always miss e noisiness in da house suddenly e house feels so quiet.. i'll also always rmb e times tat we spent togethar n i'll nvr ever forget the beautiful memories of ours.. i'll love e 3 of u always!!! n i'll miss u 3 of u!!!~sob~

anyw, haix today din get to send them off at e airport.. den was sleepy in class la den went for dance. haix sometimes, i wonder: what are true friends? who are my true friends? do i have any at all?? seriously, im not sure who can i trust n who can i not.. suddenly i feel as if everybody seem untrustable. no offence anybody.. though i noe tat people will be dere to comfort me when im sad, cheer me up when im unhappy but who shld i trust?? nw it's like i dunno who is true to me i noe tat i always look cheerful but seriously i wonder, one day if i really need help from people, who will help me? im feeling confuse now i wan to noe who is true to me n who is not but there isnt any way to test it out.

friendship is not about only talking abt things togethar but also to share weal n woe together .. in this case, TRUST plays a very big part in friendship n if there is no trust between 2 people den wads e point ?? tat isnt considered a true fren.. to me, true friend is someone tat will be dere for u always if u need them n true friend is also someone tat will stand by you always no matter wad happens n true friends will always share weal n woe with you.. so far, is there anyone tat has been like tat to me?? haix i don wish to think of it anymore n i'm tired of it.. hope tat my true friend is currently with me n i wish someone wld gimme an ans someone pls help me!!!

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

well 2dae was fineeee..=D had lesson.. lucky no PE.. i hate PE now cuz i miss roller-blading!!! n now e teacher doesnt allow us to do anything we want.. lucky she din come on mon. tmr got PE. sianx. anyw ytd went parliament hse den saw some impt pple dere. ate pizza tt my aunt made!!=) yum yum!!! n i learned how to make bacon n sausage ha! tat's nice!! den slept late ytd cuz din noe hw to do a maths.. anyw today was boring aft tt went bugis w hui =D den of all thing, MRT cannot use in e end took 63 dere , bought our things, n left. well dun wanna elaborate any further=) n josh, joel n sigu are leaving tmr.. bye josh n joel, i'll miss your noisiness n laughters!!!! n sigu i'll miss you n your advices n yer....?? hahas n yer voice.. i think everything will suddenly feel very weird aft u all leave n there'l be a feeling of emptiness inside me like it always has been.. i'll have to get used to llife w/o all of u soon n will go back to my studies=) wells okies tts all.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

y does my life have to be like this?? y m i always left-out?? y m i e one always giving in but no appreciation is shown? i hate my life!!! y does it have to be like this? i hate loneliness but all i have now is loneliness n i cannot find anyone to share my problems.. im always there when im needed by pple .. but who bothers to offer me help when i need them?? i AM always cheerful in front of people but being too cheerful jus doesn't seem to help because deep inside, i noe pple still dun trust me.. im someone tat can be trusted!! y wont pple believe? because pple thinks tat im always w/o stress jus because im cheerful? im a human n i have stress too

i hate myself. i hate my things. i hate my life.

Friday, January 19, 2007

wells... m in skool nw=D hehes mr kok allowed us to go other websites aft doing his work.. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. thanx mr kok=) anyw today's lessons was quite okay bahx. not veri sianx also not veri interesting=)

Sunday, January 14, 2007

wells veri long haven blog ler.. anyw my aunt n cousins jus came back from Australia. wheeeeeeee uber happy la den they'll be staying at our hse!!=) a pity they'll only be staying for 2 weeks. n this week had tests but some postponed to nxt week. tmr got e maths test.. haix got to study for it n haven done my compo.. haix so many things to do. gg crazie soon!!!!! might be burning midnight oil todae. anyw, hope tt i can go put with them on tue!!! shld be able to la.. i wanna go out w them!!!! yesterday had dinner with my cousins n aunts was uber fun la. den we played e game tt had to rack our brains . haha den im slow la hehes i admit=) n nxt week i'll still have alot of tests whoooooo revisions for 'O's start nxt week too=) glad tt nxt weekend might be fun though =D kkx will write till here

Saturday, January 6, 2007

okays well.. fri had sec one orientation anyway, wells today first day of chinese tuition!!! haix.. got to go for tuition again!! anyway i mus tell myself tat it is for this year's O level!! yes!! so i got to buck up!! hopefully i can get an A for chinese so tat i can concentrate on my other subjects. then this afternoon went to my aunt's house-warming. was quite okay cuz din stay long. came back den went to sleep. hmm.. i better buck up on my english too!! my god my english is like not veri good now. the grades has been falling. was shocked when i saw my english results. mayb cuz they changed the format. it's so difficult to score for english now . alright shall study hard!!

Friday, January 5, 2007

wells.. i hav finally realised an important thing: never take the people around you for granted. Always cherish your relationships with people n do not take people's kindness for granted . People always do not know how to cherish the most important thing until the thing is lost. Anyway, thanks to those who talked to me when i needed them most. Thank you Laura and Ally!!! Thanks for being there when i needed someone to talk to=D All of you have been a great help to miie jus by listening to wat i say... maybe u all wont noe how important was it jus by listening to me talk abt it but it realli was a relief.. i really feel better aft talking to all of u. n to laura :it warms my heart to noe tat u really treat me as a true friend in your heart.i seriously cherish our friendship. i'll rmb u always.. Besties forever!!=) n feel free to come to me if u need a listening ear too i'll always be there to listen to wadever it is =) n Ally, thanks for listening too even though i think i was disturbing euu but u din hang up the call n continued listening . Thank you to all for putting up with my behaviour. hahas although it is unbearable at time =D hahas i knew i could trust both of u. im happy whenever when with all of u n i feel relaxed too . Hope u al feel e same hahas or rather jus dun feel stress when u're with me hahas. Making people happy is wad i hope to do .. so i'll try to comfort pple when they're sad

Thursday, January 4, 2007

ha! okays m here to blog. 1st day of school was okay i guess.. npt as bad as i expected. Anyway , first day we have quite a lot of admin work to do.. din realli start lesson hahas got to sit with my good frens!! ha we all have names for each other la...shimin is da hamster, melissa is da dog?? hahas she was suposed to be monkey!!! hehes no la jkjk. den hui qing is da rabbit .. me? hahs im e special wan.. lolx.. no la i wan b squirrel!!!=D make hui qing jealous haha bleahx=D anyw first day was school was quite okay n i went to collect e cheque for my good progress award!!=) nan de got get =D den went for dance.. 2nd day of school was great too went library aft school.=) hahs !

Monday, January 1, 2007

whoo!!! it's a new year!! Happy new year everyone!! anyway, wells... went k-box with my cousins to celebrate new year yesterday.. we went from like 10-2?? hahax alot of amusing things happened..den we all got super high can.. whoo!!! love tt feeling!! den aft tt went to my cousin's hse to stayover.. watched one liter of tears.. hahax was touchintg la but i din cry also dunno y. i was like watching den e next thing when i turned my head , i saw my nette, Si hui n my sis crying.. whoo im heartless??? lol mayb cold-blooded =D anyw den aft tt we took pictures den talked til abt 6 before we all slept den woke up at 12 today.. went to kam boat restaurant for lunch.. wa their service was okay ba onli abit slow. den came hm n watched death note whoo!!!! waiting to get death note 2 e vcd!!! n im hoping to chiong taiwanese shows at e end of e year la..anyw wells i hope to do well in my 'O' levels =D